Friday, July 28, 2006

Photo Shoots!!!

I had a really great day today. That's because I had subjects to photograph. In the morning I did a photo shoot with Cameron. I even made him dress up which he wasn't happy about but he's a good boy so he did it for his Aunt Traci. He thought we were only going to take a few pictures. Ya, right! He should know by now that I can't stop once I start shooting. I am really happy with the pictures I took of him.

After our shoot we had fun playing air hockey (I even won a game), dancing to Radio Disney and we took turns playing hide and seek with the magnetic cars around Grams living room(about 20 times!).

Anne was with Pat most of the day today at the hospital. Pat was having a bad day. They had to give her 2 more pints of blood and her blood pressure dropped really low. I am glad that I was able to stay here and hangout with Cameron. We had a good time.

Later in the afternoon Stacy and Loretta came over with Ethan and Alex. I had Anne call Stacy this morning to see if she would like me to do a photo shoot of the Cousins together. I am happy with some of the pictures I got of the boys. It is so hard to get all three of them to smile and look at me at the same time!

Anyways, here are some of the pictures from the photo shoot of the Cousins.

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Hanging with Cameron

Cameron and I hungout at Grandma Pat's house all day yesterday. We watched cartoons, played war, fed the Tank the tortoise, and it was actually cool enough to go for a walk. On our walk we stopped and visited Tami and Sean. Of course, I took as many pictures as I possibly could. I really feel comfortable with my camera now but I learn more every time I do a shoot.

Anne stayed at the hospital all day waiting for the lab results from the surgery. We got the best news we could have gotten. The surgeon thinks he got all the cancer and only one out of the ten lymph nodes tested positive for cancer. Pat only has a 40-50% chance of recurrence if she doesn't do chemo (that is very low). So everyone slept much better last night after getting good news.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

In Orange County

I flew into Orange County yesterday. Compared to the flight to Hawaii it was nothing. I kept thinking of how I am so much more independent now. A year ago I would have never been able to travel alone because of my back. I don't want to forget how bad things were then so that I can see how far I have come. I have a life now and I am so happy. Not to say that I don't have pain, last night I was dying! The difference is now I can wake up the morning after a busy day and function instead of beeing flat on my back in bed for a week. I know the day will come again that I have a bad flare up and I have to be down but I am so thankful for every day I have that I am able to have a somewhat normal life.

I saw Pat yesterday and she was doing pretty well. I know she is in pain but she won't push her pain med button. We had to keep reminding her every 15 min to push the button. It is frustrating being on the other side the hospital bed. Now I can understand how John felt. You think if your in pain then push the damn button but she is out of it and she forgets and then her pain gets worse. It seems to me that the hospital doesn't have the nursing staff to administer meds so they give patients the button to do it themselves. The problem is if the patient isn't capable of taking care of themselves they end up going without the pain meds. I just have a hard time with seeing her in pain it is just upsets me because it is unnecessary and I understand what it is like to be in pain.

For the first time Cameron didn't run and give me hugs and kisses when he saw me. I knew the day would come that he would be to big to do that. What happened was he had a friend with him who was an older boy, like a 10 year old, and he had to be cool so he said hi to me instead. I understand. I just don't want him to grow up but I know it is going to happen. He was so cute thought, later, after his friend was gone, he grabbed my hand and held it while we were walking.

I took some good pictures of Pat and Cameron together at the hospital. I think in all the thousands of pictures I have I only have one of Cameron with his grandma. It is important for him to have those pictures.

Today we are just going to hangout around the house. We are going to rent The Pirates of the Caribbean so that I can see the first one and then Cameron and I are going to the movies to see the second one. It is so hot that we can't be outside so going to the movies will be nice. I would also like to go to the beach and maybe the aquarium in Long Beach since Cam has never been there. I will have to rent a car because Pat's is not running well and I also want to drive down and see Jeff, Martha and the kids while I am here.

Friday, July 21, 2006

A stressful day

Pat had surgery today for colon cancer. It sounds like things went well. The cancer had spread to the lymph nodes but not to the kidney or the liver. She is in ICU now but she made it through the surgery well. John, Anne and Cameron are in Southern Ca with Pat. I will fly down on Monday to hangout with Cameron.

I worked at the local wildlife rescue today. I am really sad that today was my last shift since they will be closing the songbird nursery on August 1st. I am so glad that I got to work there this year. I have wanted to volunteer there for 8 years. This is the first year since my back got bad that I have been able to do it and I loved working there. Since I have been disabled for over five years, I didn't have a lot of confidence that I could do anything to help anyone. This was a really good experience for me to work on the "I have to do everything perfectly or not do anything at all" issue. At times we had 90 baby birds to feed every 30 minutes and I was forced to just do the best I could do. There wasn't time to do things perfectly. Most days my back would be killing me by the end of my shift but is was so nice to be doing something that mattered.

This was a stressful day but I am thankful that Pat's surgery went well. Now I am going to go scrapbook!!!

Thursday, July 20, 2006

I did it!!!

Okay, I think I may have figured this out! I will be so excited if this works!!!